Hello lovelies, hope you have all had a fantastic Easter (Some of you will have been hungover, like Elliott). Did you get up to much over the Easter Weekend? I’ve got to stop promising that I will post more often. I’m not going to lie and say that I’ve been busy. I haven’t, it’s just I’m on a computer all day basically doing this and then I get home and just don’t want to look at another computer screen. I just want to come home watch my programs and have a little bit of me time.
I really should start writing blog posts through my lunch break at work. I tend to work through my lunch break though which I shouldn’t do because everybody needs a little timeout from their screens. I’m just sooooo busy.
This post is just going to be a little evening talk so go grab yourself a nice hot drink, relax and enjoy the read! Please do comment and answer questions.
I’m literally eating an Easter egg and listening to Snow Patrol. Now, did you know that they have done a new album and it’s scheduled to be released on the 25th of May 2018. Honestly cannot wait for this one, I’m a huge fan (you know what that means guys… they are going to be touring at some point, woo!).
Back in October I sat and really thought about where I wanted to be in half a years time. I set myself a goal and put my mind to it. I wanted a job in Digital marketing and wanted to move to Manchester. Six months later here I am! I have a job in Digital marketing and I’m living in a shared house in Manchester. It’s made me realise that if you want something so bad you will go for it and not stop trying. Determination is the key to success (I’m not usually the one for cliches but I’m afraid it’s true).
How have I found living by myself? Well, my family are literally over the road. It’s about an hours drive away. However, It can still get lonely at times. I miss being at home. I don’t mean so I can get everything done for me (Which I did) I quite enjoy doing my cooking, washing and cleaning even my food shopping! It makes me feel independent (I always have been). I miss being around my family and friends. I’ve gone from living with my boyfriend to now being away from him for 3-4 nights which to some people isn’t that long but going from living with them to that, it’s hard.
I’ve gone from being in this sad, depressive state where I felt as though I had no purpose and motivation. I feel now like I do have purpose and I’m doing something I love! I don’t push people away, I call my family nearly everyday for a chat and a catch up. I’m just so happy within myself and even though at times I get a little lonely I don’t feel completely alone like I did before. I stopped taking my anti-depressants a month a go and I feel great! I am so proud of myself, I’m becoming somebody that I once aspired to be.
I’m 20 years old and have my own home, a job, I pay my bills (I mean I do get a little help from my family because they support me and believe this is something I can do) and I have friends. I still have my days. That’s just everyone though, right?
What have you achieved that you are proud of?
Last week I decided to cancel my gym membership because I felt going to the gym was becoming a chore. If it becomes a chore and you aren’t enjoying it then whats the point? Your physical state might be healthy but your emotional state starts to deteriorate. I decided that I should subscribe to my Look Fantastic Beauty Box again instead. It gives me something to look forward to each month and also something I can write about which I enjoy doing.
What do you enjoy doing in your spare time?
So, the house I have moved into is almost perfect. I actually have the neighbors from hell! Everybody I house share with is lovely, I’ve actually made some close friends. I am constantly getting woke up at daft hours by them screaming, arguing and banging. Unfortunately they aren’t the type of people you would approach and ask them to stop. When they argue it sounds like they are in my room, which wakes me up and then they keep me up for hours. The police have been contacted three times by me and housemates due to it being a domestic violence situation. The council have been out to my house to set up monitors and it’s just been a HUGE nightmare to be honest. I only have 3 months left in this property then I can move out.
At the end of the tenancy me and another girl I share with are going to move out into a little two bed roomed apartment together. I’ve made this negative situation become a positive one because If I hadn’t moved here I wouldn’t have met the people that I have. I wouldn’t have made plans to move in with somebody who is basically me (Our birthdays are 2 days apart and we have the same name just spelled differently) Haha. It has also taught me how to be more patient in life.
Have you ever had to go through a similar situation? If so how did it get dealt with?
Overall, I’m developing as a person each and everyday and learning new lifelong skills. I would also like to say a MASSIVE thank you to my parents for helping me achieve my goals and letting me be me. Also helping me through some really tough times.
Thank you for reading.